So there is this B word, heard of it?

Whew, it's been a while since I have come across the pages of my blog, but lo and behold, I thought I was going to have some brilliant thing to share via another social site and realized that it would have been better off to have epiphany's elsewhere, hence this blog I am welcoming back into my time and space!

Speaking of space, we recently made the BIG MOVE to a new town with our family.  Things have gone slow, steady and overall pretty great!  We have a beautiful lot that the house sits on. There are 12 full grown trees total that make up the landscaping and the species variety of trees blows my mind.  Speaking of landscaping, if someone would like to volunteer some sweat, muscles and time to helping me clean up the yard I would openly welcome it!!  Anyone?  "crickets chirping"  Bueller?  The home is actually a bit bigger than we were thinking, but it has more character.  The neighbors homes are not 5 feet away from yours, the inside of the home has more walls as the house was originally built in 1977.   I am enjoying the thrill of having my very own garden!  It is blossoming beautifully and I couldn't have asked for a better turnout for all the sweat, blood (yes) and some tears I put into it.  The tears mostly came from the tweaked muscles, but hey, I know my body is working, my veggies and fruits are growing and the raspberry patch on the South side is more than I could have ever asked for.  It gives me the warm fuzzies when I see my boy going to pick raspberries fresh off the branch just to have a "snack."

Speaking of the boy, my kiddo's have come across new adventures around every corner!  We feel very fortunate that we have this magnificent sized yard that provides them with their little safari atmosphere.  Lately the catch of the day has been more frogs n toads!  My son...oh my precious boy.  As any proud Mom would say of their child, he could quite possibly be a Zoologist when he chooses his future endeavors!  We now know where our lil man's passions lie.  And they lie in mother earth indeed.  My daughter, she is carving her own path still.  We know she loves music, turtles, water, dirt, My Little Ponies, Super Mario, puzzles, coloring and everything in the toy section at a store.  Wait a second, oh yeah, she's 4.

Check out this frogger pic, you will get an idea of what the boy has been catching.

Someone asked me recently how I managed certain aspects of my life.  It was a "when do you ever get to see people" question.  That question was a little unexpected!  They also inquired about certain things such as time and where my energy is pulled.  I don't show the details of it, but I can say, for those that do know where my time goes, I thank you for acknowledging it VERY much!  I've felt as though people have needed me more lately each day. (pssst, kids)  I was surprised when the words that came out of my mouth were "achieving a balance for me means acknowledging people and honoring their presence somehow."  Whoah.  Where in Sam H E Double Hockey Sticks does that come from? (sorry always have wanted to type it) I've found with taking some more time here and there to meditate while in my garden, I'm achieving a bit more of a balance in thoughts.  I recommend this therapy to anyone who wants to try gardening by the way. 

So, here's what I do to honor them.  When I think of that family member, friend or whomever the person is, I just acknowledge it.  I sit and let myself think of them and then I think of them in a healing and peaceful light and I smile that I have them.  I will sometimes send a message via text, email or fcbk message on their wall too!  Modern technology makes this SO easy to do.  I believe that when I am doing this, I can honor the thought and spend a few moments there and then move back to being in the present.

What I figured out is that when I let myself spend a LOT of time focusing on my family members on the other side of the state or country for that matter, is that it takes away from the life I am living.  If I focus on them all day long and worry…which solves nothing… then I'm not available for my hubby, my kids or my sanctity and well being.  Being present can be a challenge when your focus is some place else. I think "how would my MIL feel if I sat all day and worried about her and didn't connect with my family?"  I make sure that I take the time to acknowledge.. I also make sure that I plan intentional time to call, message, text or whatever to my family and spend time with them when I can.

This is all part of the balance I have been working toward. Being present is a valuable thing, it saves time, worry and relationships.  With being present, I have been working on communicating what ever I may feel which will help me achieve the balance I crave.  But right now, I am craving a shower because I am a dirtball from the garden time today~